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My dad's [31 Oct 2005|11:33am]
[ mood | tired ]

Well the police never came back for me. I was at my dad's anyway.

Saturday night I went to The Spot (a night club) with Crystal and Brandon. They're married. I don't know how I'm related to them or if I am at all. I don't think I am. So, I was kinda the third wheel even though other people came with us. Theywere married too. Another girl was there, who was also married, but her husband wasn't there. So, it was wierd. I was the only single one there. Anyway. I went to a bar for the first time ever. I had a sex on the beach. It was reall good. I had two of them. I also had two other drinks and a Miller light. It was mad expensive and I spent all my money. I felt sick but I wasn't really drunk. And I feel like a drank a lot. It was weird. Brandon started to grind with me because he was drunk but Crystal didn't seem to mind. That was weird too. So, yeah. It was a fun night.

I decided to go see my brother the next day, so I went to map quest to get directions. Well, I ended up getting lost anyway. After asking many people for directions and having my brother and a little boy (his girlfriend's son) walk to where I was, I finally found him. Well we took my car and drove all over the place, looking for weed. My brother calls it his medication. Because he can barely function without it. I tried to get coke but that fell through. So, we just got the weed, smoked that, and then I ended up getting lost again on my way home. I got so lost I sat there at a gas station and cried. I was able to back track my way back to my brother girl friends. So, I called my mom and told her I couldn't find my way home and I would have to find someone who knew how to get there. She freaked the fuck out. "I want my car back here now!!" I'm coming there to get it!! I want the adress!!" Well, I cried again. So, my brother took my phone from me and asked my mother what was wrong. She freaked at him.

First, I never explained that my brothers and sisters, we all have different moms, we just share the same dad. So, him and my mom haven't talked in years. Mostly because she blames him for what happened to me when I was 6 or 7. She yelled at him for that. Told him I was raped by his friends(though I really don't remember what happened- the mind has it's way of protecting itself when something tramatic happens to you) and it was all his fault. She told him he gave me drugs and alcohol, which he did, but it's not like I wasn't already doing it. But, he didn't give me weed for the first time, several years ago. He ended up hanging up the phone when, she said our dead grandmother can burn in hell. We found out my to my dad's girlfriends, and she was nice enough to get me to where I knew I could get myself home. SOm I got home, and my mom was calmed down by then. So, that's good.

Now, I'm at the back desk at the library. They decided I would stay here for the entire time I was here on Mondays. Just great.

Oh yeah, I took pictures of people at my dad's. I will post them when I get home.

Happy Halloween Everyone!

[EDIT]

pictures from my dad's- pay attention to labels at the bottom at the pictures, that tells you who they are. )

There's still many more people whose picture's I've yet to take, either because my camera was being gay, or because they were being camera shy. I hope to get there more often and sneak in a few pictures.

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[19 Oct 2005|05:52pm]
Make me happy and do this?

What do you really think of me?
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AGAIN. [17 Oct 2005|09:01pm]
[ mood | bored ]

I know I did this before... I'm doing it again.


ANONYMOUSLY reply to this:
1. One secret
2. One compliment for me
3. One criticism of me
4. One love note to whoever you wish
5. Lyrics to a song
6. How old you are
7. How long we've been friends
8. One wish you have
9. What makes you happy
10. And a hint to who you are

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I'm smart [11 Oct 2005|07:38pm]
[ mood | happy ]

I scored 104 on an IQ test =)

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picturezzzzzzzz [27 Sep 2005|06:41pm]
mommy, me and dog #3 )
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Update. [07 Sep 2005|03:01pm]
[ mood | complacent ]

You know your shallow when your embarrassed to be seen with ugly people. What the hell is wrong with me?

Got kicked out of the mall yesurday because I was with people that felt the need to get high before they got there and throw shit at some guy.

Yeah that's about it. I took lots of cute pictures but the stupid think won't work. Gurr.

Mike is so cool!

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Friends Cut. [20 Jun 2005|12:45pm]
[ mood | blah ]

I may consider adding you back, if you wanna stay.

Buh bye to:

[info]xretrocareerx

[info]ttripp

[info]toffee69

[info]serapholocaust

[info]rynette129

[info]rhcp

[info]princessangelk6

[info]pastels

[info]palereflection

[info]discos

[info]hauntedwhisper

[info]grl_atda_rcksho

[info]deathbylucy

[info]dead_cheshire

[info]beautifulflawed

[info]bitter_desire

[info]crimson_28

[info]daydreamer12821

[info]emotional0584

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[14 Mar 2005|06:06pm]
You totally need to sign up for this http://www.surfjunky.com/?r=beautiflybrokn.
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Friends Cut. [26 Jan 2005|07:08pm]
[ mood | bitchy ]
[ music | Maroon 5~ harder to breathe ]

Friends Cut

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[info]__swallowtail

[info]barely_existing

[info]shootmealready

[info]square_nine

[info]rynette129

.... If I deleted you, and you want to stay comment here and I'll add you back. 

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